January 2012
5 posts
Thirty Things.
thirty things to stop doing to yourself: as maria robinson once said, “nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” nothing could be closer to the truth. but before you can begin this process of transformation you have to stop doing the things that have been holding you back. here are some ideas to get you started:
stop spending time with the...
October 2011
23 posts
These Times
How long as it been? Since I’ve wandered these nostalgic roads?
Grandma.
Pray tell, how are you my beloved? Have you changed at all? Are you enjoying yourself within the confines of those golden gates? I wonder how you look down and watch us the way the media says that you do. Is it through a television set? Do you perch yourself on one of those beautifully painted clouds and peer over...
July 2011
6 posts
Hatred.
I’ll admit, I went into depressed mode for a couple hours cause you couldn’t come over… *sigh* How pathetic am I? I just, I dunno. I seem to keep being reminded of how much time i have left. Here. I really wanted you to come over because I know I don’t have much time left. Ever since last night, that’s all I’ve thought about. All I’m doing at home is...
Unfinished Post
It’s almost like a nightmare. Y’know, those ones that reoccur sometimes in your sleep, and you know that it’s familar, except for a couple different twists. This is how my life feels. Nearly like a nightmare. Surely, I should be happy that so many things are coming together or coming to an end, but honestly, I don’t feel that way. Nothing feels at ease. I’ve cried almost every single day this past...
Pathetic.
Ever since The fourth of July, I’ve been paranoid. And these dreams are driving me crazy. They happened before the fourth of July. So, I’m a little confused.
I love him, and I’m sure of it. There’s absolutely no doubt! I want to spend my forever with him, and I know that we can do it. I was delirious and moody. Not sure if i can even use that as an excuse. I am definitely...
June 2011
4 posts
Blurb.
Splurge. I’m on my period. Therefore, i caution you before i read this because what i say will come out like blood comes out of a vagina. raw.
So, lots of things running around in my head right now, different types of music playing on my phone, mixed emotions making me feel all giddy and energetic. What a perfectly good idea to waste all this energy on a blog that probably no one will read...
The Speech.
funny how some things work sometimes, doncha think? its almost as if God doesn’t know what else to do but recycle old events with new people and situations.. at least that’s what I think. a month. 4 weeks. one day. thats all it was. thats all we had and its all i needed to remember her forever. Not that i would have forgotten her anyways. I may not have had all the memories I would...
May 2011
2 posts
Antonia.
She makes a lot of abstract art. She haggles for the cheapest price. She never orders take-out food before ten o’clock at night. She’s really into snowmobiles. She owns a lot of nice flashlights. She cares for all the stupid cats that never found their way home. She shaves her legs with Ginsu Knives. She quotes a lot of Annie Hall. She misplaced her virginity back in 1995....
riskeverythingfearnothing:
Words fall short. They cannot define the anxiety we feel while waiting, the gut wrenching feeling that overcomes us while we read, or the pain the comes with discovering what we never wanted to know. Words are words. Should we allow other people to be responsible for our heartbreak in what they say?
April 2011
2 posts
Nostalgia.
Its weird.. I swear I haven’t been on tumblr in forever, and I don’t necessarily plan on getting back into it. I have much more to experience in life than sitting in front of a computer reading how other people have been living their lives..
Revisiting.. is almost like coming back to a home town after a couple of years.. it’s so odd.. I can feel all the emotions flooding back...
September 2010
7 posts
The Perfect Date: IRL.
Much to my surprise, we went through with it. We went to those places that we texted we would go. Quite the relief. And a great sense of accomplishment!! The morning of, I go to pick up Jenna at 615 because we had a study session to get to. I spent at least an extra hour with him. that was fun. He mention that I should sit closer to him, but I shook my head because I didn’t feel like...
Dear Kelly;
My reaction.. is neither furious nor heartbroken.. it’s almost like I saw this coming.. it doesn’t hurt as much as I thought it would.
Perhaps, I am lying to myself. Saying the things I said to comfort myself.. I keep telling myself that I want things to work out. That we can be best friends with the way things are. I s’pose we can’t. I tell myself that I want to try....
Moments of Denial.
I really shouldn’t think anything of it.. But I can’t help it.. Y’know? Kinda like having a rash, that you can’t help but itch? “If she were older, I’d tap that.” Despite the fact that it gave me the shivers because it was an utterly disgusting, it kinda irked me. I was like.. Eh.. wha?! Cause.. she’s actually really pretty. Well.. not.. pretty per...
Day 5- Six things you wish you’ve never done.
1. I wish I never regretted anything.
2. I wish I never over assumed, or over reacted when it came to sexual activity.
3. I wish I never hated my father.
4. I wish I stopped having those phases when I feel suicidal.
5. I wish I could stop wishing and do something about it.
6. I wish I would stop wasting my time whining and complaining about everything.
August 2010
13 posts
Day 4 - Seven things that cross your mind a lot
1. Joe.
2. What time is it?
3. I wonder If I have any notifications on facebook..
4. I really want to hang out today.
5. I am tired.
6. Do we have food?
7. What’s on t.v. right now?